Self Teaching Notes, Part Three

I hope to learn from the past and not procrastinate with working on projects. I've been operating like this since high school: spending a lot of time thinking about a project then pulling all-nighters; cramming artwork out beautifully the very last minute.

I am slowly, successfully, leaving my ways of pulling all-nighters... but I don't know what it is about me where I feel that I do my best working on things the very last minute. It's the pressure, the buzz. Finally the finished product is made. When I am done, I am done.

I am getting out of this mode of working, knowing that this way of operating is unhealthy and a very bad habit. I know that artists and other creative people do this. But it works. BUT I don't like working like this because it is too stressful. It is very unprofessional and I fear you can tell when the artwork has been hurried and rushed during the creating process and is sloppy. "That piece" could have been a million times better if I didn't procrastinate on it the beginning and worked on it every morning with a clear mind, fresh attitude, and well-rested body. As time goes by, I try to work on my projects by better time management, pacing one's self, getting rest; being disciplined. There is also the problem of me being sick all of the time from the lupus... but that is another story. It is hard to also include that with your managing your time. You always have to leave room on the schedule to know that there will be a couple of times you will be sick and too tired. How do I deal with this and keep it up with my health? The only thing I find promising is to keep in mind that you have a sick body, you can't do it all, but keep hope to try to manage your health wisely.

Thus, keep going to the Galter Life Center. Build endurance. Get real energy.

Discipline self.

Have fun doing so. Be hopeful.

Re-train body and mind to operate in a more healthy manner.